This news is so shocking and so sad for me, I don’t really even know where to begin. TMZ was the first to report that DJ AM was found dead in his apartment yesterday. It’s always so shocking when young people die, and when they die so unexpectedly, it just makes it even more sad. But I think what’s most shocking about this story is that DJ AM cheated death not even a year ago after surviving a plane crash that killed 4 other people. So many thoughts run through your head when you hear this story. Especially after you hear that it was most likely a drug overdose that killed him. Crack pipes and prescription pills were found in his apartment, along with the talented and already so missed DJ. TMZ originally had very few details but this is what was posted on the site,
“DJ AM’s body was removed from his New York City apartment late Friday evening. Sources tell TMZ he was pronounced dead at 6:00 PM Friday — prescription pill bottles and a crack pipe were found in the apartment.”
As it turns out, this may be the first time it ended in tragedy for DJ AM, but it’s not the first time he tried to take his own life. Long before he even thought of any plane crashes, when he was only 24, he put a gun into his mouth and pulled the trigger. The gun didn’t go off. Then coming away from that plane crash just last fall, it makes you wonder if that also had something to do with it. You’ve got to be thinking, “Thank God I lived!” But at the same time, you’re also wondering, “Why?” Makes sense to me and apparently, to DJ AM, who was already struggling with depression issues, it was too much of a reality. This is what People has to say about the troubled life of DJ AM,
“The death of the deejay, 36, brings to a close the life of a tremendously talented – but troubled – individual who, as it so happens, had cheated death on numerous occasions.
Born Adam Goldstein, the Pennsylvania native’s struggles began at a young age in Philadelphia, where he was raised by his mother Andrea, and a father “who seemed to hate me,” he told Glamour in January 2008. “The verbal abuse he subjected me to was unbelievably cruel. I would find out later that there was a good reason my father was so tortured – he was secretly gay and addicted to drugs.”
The tumultuous upbringing took its toll: struggling with depression, Goldstein first turned to drugs at 12; his first visit to a rehabilitation center came when he was 17.
Goldstein also developed a habit of overeating, and, in his early 20s, was tipping the scales at nearly 300 lbs.
Despite his considerable success spinning on the party circuit in Los Angeles, the deejay hit a low point at 24 when, after a night of cocaine, he loaded a .22 gun and tried to kill himself. “I sat back on my heels, cocked it and put it in my mouth,” he told “Glamour”. “Then I squinted my eyes and said, ‘F–k this.’ I pulled the trigger.” The gun, he says, didn’t go off.
Following his suicide attempt, Goldstein went sober with the help of friends in recovery meetings, and got sober – and after his 30th birthday lost 155 lbs. by undergoing gastric bypass surgery. At a Television Critics’ Association panel in Pasadena July 29, while he was promoting his upcoming MTV series, Gone Too Far, Goldstein announced, “I’ve been a recovering addict for 11 years.”
Still, as might be imagined, the the horrific 2008 plane crash rattled the recovering addict. In December 2008, wen he filed a lawsuit against the aircraft manufacturer, he explained he was seeking damages for “pain, suffering, mental anguish, psychological and emotional distress, disfigurement and pre-impact fear of death and burning.”
His recovery offered several revelations. Among them: while in the hospital being treated for burns, he learned of a potentially fatal blood clot that, he said, “could have traveled to my heart and I could have died.”
“There’s no reason why I should have lived or I lived and they didn’t,” he said in July. “And it’s something I struggle with every day.”
Like I said, there’s really so much sad to this story that it’s hard to know where to begin. Our thoughts go out to everyone who are grieving this very sad loss. And I’m sure as time goes on, we’ll hear even more about DJ AM and what happened to have it end in such tragedy.
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